Feel it all
the happiness
the joy
the excitement
the love
Feel it all
the sadness
the pain
the terror
the disgust
Feel it all
the discontent
the frustration
the indifference
the despair
Feel it all
the butterflies
the unicorns
the rainbows
the stars
Just feel it all
as life is nothing
nothing
nothing
without your feelings.
If you try to dumb
distract
deflect
all the time
you are missing out on everything.
And instead of living
you are existing.
It’s easy to numb
by eating until you can’t breathe anymore.
It’s easy to numb
by never eating at all.
It’s easy to distract
by overexercising to take the pain away.
It’s easy to deflect
by overeating every day of the week.
It’s easy to fight boredom
by bingeing
It’s easy to fight feelings
by hopping from one diet to the next.
It’s easy to not feel.
But is it really?
Is the price not too high?
The price of not living?
The price of not healing?
The price of never fully being ALIVE?
Just so that you don’t need to feel what you feel anyway?
And you know it –
no matter how hard you try
no matter how much you eat
no matter how many diets you’re on
you do feel.
You do notice the pain
the happiness
the joy that’s leaking even though you can’t
won’t
don’t want to feel.
The grounding you experience from filling up on food
the heartache you experience from bingeing yet again
the terror you experience from not eating
they’re all a tiny distraction, aren’t they?
They don’t really work.
They don’t even serve as a hint of a bandaid for your emotional pain.
For your dissatisfaction.
Your boredom.
Your fear of being yourself.
They don’t even serve as a hint of a moment of peace because –
underneath the layers of I have to eat all of this now or I’ll never be able to breathe again
there’s a mountain of air desperate to be inhaled.
And you have the capacity to inhale it all.
Just like you’re inhaling the food you really don’t want to eat.
The same is true for those exhales,
exhaling the terror you feel inside is easy –
you don’t have to diet to do so.
All you have to do is take a breath,
even if it’s the smallest tiniest one and then –
with courage
breathe it all out.
And again.
And again.
Until your circle of breath begins to be smoother, braver, more life-affirming.
You don’t have to deny yourself your feelings to survive.
In fact, the only way you’ll live is if you allow yourself to feel it all now.
Feel it all
the happiness
the joy
the excitement
the love
Feel it all
the sadness
the pain
the terror
the disgust
Feel it all
the discontent
the frustration
the indifference
the despair
Feel it all
the butterflies
the unicorns
the rainbows
the stars
Our feelings are here for a reason.
The traumas you’ve experienced are here to be healed.
And you have the power
the capacity
the inner wisdom to heal it all.
You will need support
but there’s no shame in that.
You will need time
and there’s only love in that.
You will need patience
yet we know you’ve been patient for long enough.
Now’s the time for you to stand up like nobody’s business.
Let others talk.
Let others gossip.
Let others misunderstand.
It doesn’t matter.
This is about you and your body.
This is about your most important relationship of your life.
If you want to heal your relationship with yourself,
dive into intuitive eating,
body image healing,
letting go of the need to overeating, binge, diet and hate on yourself,
then this is your decision
and you’re the one who’ll live with the beautiful rewards of your work.
May that be weight gain
weight loss
weight stabilization.
May that be a profound knowing of your inner worth
a bigger sense of yourself
a higher level of resilience.
So, stop holding your breath,
stop hating on yourself just so it hurts,
stop waiting to go under and instead
take that deep breath and rise
rise
rise
to the surface of your life –
and beyond –
up into the sphere that surrounds it all –
the place you truly belong
soaring in this planet
soaring in your existence
soaring in the knowledge of how very worthy you are.
You don’t have to wait for others to approve of you changing
adapting
transforming your body image
your relationship with food
your connection to yourself.
You don’t have to be scared of what they might think if you
lose weight
gain weight
or stay at the weight you sport right now.
You don’t have to make your life dependant on what they think –
however they are.
It’s BS –
they don’t live in your skin.
They never have and never will.
And if they cannot accept you feeling it all.
You feeling your dispapointmnets,
your despair,
your happiness,
your joy,
then they’re not your people.
If they can’t handle you feeling absolutely confident in your bathing suit,
you dancing naked in the middle of the night,
you living your life to the full,
they don’t belong in your life.
If they can’t handle you,
why do you spend time with them?
In the end, this is about you feeling it all.
The good,
the what we label as bad,
the in-between.
It’s about feeling
believing
trusting that your feelings are right
they’re your guiding light.
Don’t numb them,
don’t cheat on them by denying their existence,
don’t hurt yourself by distracting yourself for more than necessary.
And instead,
feel,
feel,
feel
in order to heal your open wounds
and therefore your entire life.
Oh, I want to see you soar.
And I have no doubt that you will wake up one day with an unwavering sense of your infinite worth and your unbelievable beauty.
You, however, have to do the work to get to that glorious morning that is written in your stars and is designed as part of your path on this life.
It’s up to you to write this moment into stone now and for as long as it takes.
So, feel.
Just,
feel.
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There’s no better time than today to start loving yourself. The longer you wait, the more of your life you’re missing out on and you know, deep down, that it could be so much better for you. And that it should be better and you’re ready to start that change now.
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