For most of my life, I have been asking myself what my true essence really was.
Why am I here? What is the reason of life? Who am I? What am I supposed to do? What is my true essence? Who is the real Anne-Sophie?
I was searching, searching, searching.
Fleeing into anorexia, exercise, bad, bad relationships and other crazy stuff.
I was running until I couldn’t run no more, until I was faced with the realization that to this day, I don’t know what my true essence is.
I don’t know where I belong. I have no clue what I’m supposed to do, who I’m going to be. Heck, I have no idea who I am at this moment in time.
Maybe I am love. Maybe I am freedom. Maybe I am a mom. Maybe I am nothing at all.
I don’t know.
But for the very first time in my life, I don’t mind not knowing.
I don’t mind admitting that I’m on a journey.
That I haven’t arrived.
I don’t mind because I’ve come to believe that finding your true essence is about the process. Part of your finding true essence is the unlayering of everything that isn’t you.
It’s not the destination, it truly is the day-to-day practice.
And over time, you’ll slowly inch closer to who you really are.
If you’re committed, if you keep at it, you’ll find your path, you’ll find your core. You may never arrive, but you sure as hell will live a life of discovery and curiosity.
And if you ask me, that’s more than enough.
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